Beauty, loss and their ‘side-by-side-ness’

– Jennifer Nash

My ‘nanni’ turned 90 this week. She’s seen it all, she told me recently. I’m ready were her words, in fact. I winced – I wince still – and squeezed her hand. She draws my attention to its contours – to sagging skin and veins standing to attention. I attend: I see her hand lovely, whispering chronicles of mischief, creativity and labour. Of chapati-rolling. She sees tired and old-looking: she tells me so. I clasp tighter. I can’t remember what I said, or didn’t say. I didn’t and don’t want her to be floating solo in that space-time – and yet even my very best empathy – the one all my training was really for – is not up to this moment, this today. Continue reading “Beauty, loss and their ‘side-by-side-ness’”

How can leaders ‘get out of the way’? An alternative look at bias

Leadership should be aimed at helping to free people from oppressive structures, practices and habits encountered in societies and institutions, as well as within the shady recesses of ourselves” – Professor Amanda Sinclair

Biases can be shady – or even dangerous. An example is the tendency for both men and women to prefer male leaders, as reported by Professor Alice Eagly. Gender bias persists across all sectors and worldwide, realising its power to reduce the life chances for many women, especially those contending with multiple unfavourable biases as many black women do. Continue reading “How can leaders ‘get out of the way’? An alternative look at bias”

Workplace inclusion: listen up leaders, managers, and colleagues

Black Lives Matter: it’s time to do some of the work.

Here are 3 evidence-based practical considerations for workplace inclusion that arguably aren’t so well known. These pointers have emerged from doctoral research looking at the career progression (or not) of marginalised staff, such as racially minoritised women. Continue reading “Workplace inclusion: listen up leaders, managers, and colleagues”

Interrupt discrimination without lifting a finger: listen more, talk less

‘I’m white in the mornings and brown in the evenings’. This is what a four year-old of dual heritage told me recently. I wanted both to laugh and cry. And what this exemplifies is that the topic of race is as confusing – and conflicting – as it gets. Moreover, such feelings are far from limited to littles. Continue reading “Interrupt discrimination without lifting a finger: listen more, talk less”

To direct or not to direct

Eight reasons why therapists find it tricky to make suggestions

‘I suggest that you.. ’ is something I rarely say to clients. If you are deciding how much (it’s a continuum) you want to be led by your therapist – how directive an approach you want – the following may help. For the purposes of this piece, I’m defining directivity as the ‘I suggest’ kind of comment.

Here are 8 reasons why I don’t tend to direct clients – and some exceptions. Continue reading “To direct or not to direct”

Disclosure – and a Great Dane

This is not a ‘ten ways to be more mindful during lockdown’ article. I considered writing something similar given that these have their place; and at the same time I’m cautious of endorsing a ‘quick fix’ mentality.

So, this is me starting to unpick the relationship between self-disclosure and peace, instead. I choose this topic because this is ultimately what many clients are grappling with: the fear of being – and showing – themselves. Of disclosure. The great Dane-ish philosopher Soren Kierkengaard said that an individual’s deepest despair lies in choosing to be another than themselves.

For self-disclosure: fear – and courage

I don’t much feel the need to protect myself these days. This means that it isn’t usually fear that stops me from self-disclosing – both personally and professionally. If anything, I’ve always felt more acutely the alternative; the risk not to disclose. No doubt this is linked to having been burnt by not sharing what was important to me in the past; the inaction clawed at me. I struggled to find clarity – and courage. Now, I fear more the risk of keeping myself out of relationship, of not communicating. In clients’ relationships with others, I also often witness the damaging consequences of not sharing the big and the small.

Against self-disclosure: when keeping shtum is king

As in my article below, I’m not evangelical about self-disclosure and ‘the talking cure’. Keeping shtum I’ve occasionally found would have been vitally protective. For example, when I’ve disclosed something personal and difficult, and have not been ‘received’ in that communication. Self-disclosure of course does not guarantee connection and empowerment. We need the receiver to sufficiently understand and accept us for this to be the case.

We are each well within our rights not to disclose – or answer – anything we don’t want to. I’m reminded of the writer Rebecca Solnit’s statement, ‘not all questions have to be answered’. For me, as long as it isn’t fear that’s stopping me from speaking or doing, I’m good.

Power, power, power

Decisions not to self-disclose, if not made with awareness, tend to have a power implication. That is, the more ‘mysterious’ I am, the more likely I am to have power over others. Power over others is the last thing I want. In my personal life, if I’m needing to hold back – not disclose – then this probably speaks of some insecurity in me. It may be fruitful to check your motivation if your tendency is to be private, not just for you but so that you are not inadvertently exerting power over another.

Context, content and trust

Self-disclosure, like other aspects of human relating, is far from a binary issue but mediated by context, content and trust. In my professional context, clients tend to feel like they know me well, even if I rarely disclose about my personal world. I believe this is because I’m pretty open with clients about how I am impacted by them. I would even say that, other than romantically or sexually, there are no parts of my world that are categorically off limits to clients. And at the same time it has thus far never occurred to me to share things like my romantic status or how I feel about my mum because I have not found it relevant to another’s therapy.

Self-disclosure is nuanced: I am not discussing here sharing ‘stats’ like whether I have a partner or siblings, but how I am impacted by another. It is possible to create intimacy – like the kind I have with clients – without in some ways sharing many ‘facts’ at all.

What kind of content might I share with clients? I may feel easy sharing my political persuasion but less so talking about how I feel about my beloveds – the latter is more personal to me. The nature of the content impacts my choices around disclosure, naturally.

Although I have thus far described self-disclosure as the process of imparting information, in my experience it is rarely just this. It is more often a back and forth conversation between people, involving clarification, interest, digestion and so forth. For the process of self-disclosure to ‘work’ I need to have sufficient trust in a confidante that they would be willing and able to engage in such a conversation. The role and person of the receiver – and my relationship with them – is therefore also key to whether self-disclosure ‘works’. Given this, as a confidante I strive to be non-judgemental; to be trustworthy. Lofty but true: I strive to be worthy of the honour.

Disclose on your terms (mainly)

Some have found me positively guarded. Others have found me overwhelmingly open. I don’t know if it makes a difference that the latter experience has been with British friends. I have felt pulls in both directions: both to be more open and to be more contained.

Contorting myself too much to suit others rarely leaves me feeling at peace. I understand of course that I must mediate myself socially to some degree. And, a theme across the board in my own therapy and witnessing clients tends to be a movement away from pleasing others. Generally speaking, we are all doing too much of this. Being aware of the pull to please helps me not to disclose habitually.

In the absence of disclosure: are your fantasies helping you?

When we don’t have information – such as when it is not disclosed – we can automatically fill those gaps with assumption or fantasy. This is a common phenomenon.

When clients dare to trust me with their fantasies about me it tends to help their therapy. Note, I don’t need to put fantasies right by correcting with disclosure; I do need to explore how a client’s fantasy affects their therapy. For example, an assumption about me having or not having children may impact how an individual relates to me, and how they reflect on the topic in our conversations.

Outside of therapy, it may be trickier to check out fantasies we hold about others. Still, consider it if you don’t already do this, especially where there is sufficient trust between you and the other. If that’s a struggle, being aware of assumptions and fantasies we hold is in itself in the direction of health.

Self-awareness

It’s worth noting where you are on a spectrum of disclosure (closed/private at one end and open/public on the other). Consider what you are not disclosing – with loved ones, a therapist, or even yourself – and why. The eminent therapist Carl Rogers’ observation after decades of research might be of interest if fear is a factor in your privacy: ‘what is most personal is most universal’. People often say to me, ‘what’s the point in sharing? Others can’t change [XYZ]’. This may be true, but we may be changed – for the better – instead.

Ten ways that talking – to a mate or therapist – can trigger helpful changes in the brain

Should you be struggling with your mental health, knowing what your brain is doing to help behind the scenes could be empowering and hope-inducing. Talking – and not just to a therapist – can change brain structure and function in useful ways. In turn our nervous systems, as well as other internal organs such as the heart and gut, start doing things to help us out too.   Continue reading “Ten ways that talking – to a mate or therapist – can trigger helpful changes in the brain”